That feeling of anticipation and excitement as you look forward to something for so long…and in the blink of an eye, it is over.
I’m not a happy camper today. I jokingly refer to it as ‘post-party depression’, but in all seriousness, I’m feeling pretty let down and deflated. We have been looking forward to Adam’s brothers, Andy & Logan, and their girlfriends Martha & Candice, to visit us in Australia for months. I seriously thought about it every single day leading up to their arrival. We had the greatest time together over the past few weeks. So many hysterically funny moments and memories. I couldn’t have asked for a better way to spend the holidays.
I feel so blessed to live here in Brisbane, and Australia in general. It is an absolutely beautiful part of the world, and I am grateful every day for my life here. However, I do struggle with the fact that we are so far away from ‘home’.
I miss my family. Thomas’s grandparents and uncles have only spent limited time with him when we visited Canada last summer, and basically only know him through photos, videos, and FaceTime. Having a baby is incredibly exciting and overwhelmingly wonderful, so it’s been difficult not having shared these moments with our loved ones. We only have one life, and the lack of time spent with our parents and siblings scares me sometimes.
I miss my friends. I have met some incredible people here in Australia who have been extremely supportive and inviting. We definitely cherish these friendships and I don’t want to downplay them in any way. However, I oftentimes feel like I’m missing out. I missed two of my best friends’ weddings this year. Two others had babies. Some are planning their weddings. Some are planning their nurseries. I left Calgary, and my
sister best friend moved there a few months later. Those people who I can just invite over to hang out in sweatpants, and know they won’t judge me for having a messy house or not having to feel the need to “host” them. There is a level of comfort that you acquire from longterm friendships; it’s a difficult void to fill.
Moving to the other side of the planet (and becoming a mother here) has certainly broadened my horizons, diversified my perspectives, and has essentially made me a stronger person. It has made me appreciate the little things, value my independence, and the cherish the simple moments.
I typically try to tie my posts back to living a healthy lifestyle in some way, but today I just need to release these thoughts. It makes me feel better getting it all out, so I can look forward with positivity and a clear mind.
I have a feeling 2014 is going to be a fantastic year. I have a few goals and plans laid out in terms of fitness, nutrition, and personal development, which I will be sharing in my next post. Today, I just want to recompose, reset, and refocus. Although I am so sad to see our visitors leave and our holiday to come to an end, I am also filled with incredible gratitude. We are so blessed.
I was listening to an interview with my other main man, Keith Urban, a little while ago as he recalled a conversation he’d had that week with his wife, Nicole Kidman. As they sat outside watching their daughters play in the evening air, she looked at him, smiled and stated, “This is it.” As simple as that sounds, there is such depth. Take time this weekend to “live in the moment”, whoever you are with and whatever you are doing. It’s wonderful to really appreciate these time as they are happening, instead of only reflecting on them once they are over.
We will miss you guys so much, but look forward to many more laughs and memories when we see you in August. Xx