A Blogging Birthday & A Few Thoughts

I can’t believe this little blog of mine is celebrating it’s 2nd birthday!

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I started writing Femme Fitale on April 6th, 2012. Blogging had been on my mind for quite some time. I’d just come home from a vacation to Roatan, Honduras, and Adam had stayed behind for a second week with his brothers to do some diving. I had to return to Calgary, as teachers only have the luxury of a 1-week spring break! I had been feeling a bit bored, so thought it was a great time to finally take the plunge into the blogging world.

{My FIRST post ever!!! Hah! –> “Break’s Over”}

Little did I know that two years, a move across the globe, and a baby later, I’d still be here typing away into cyberspace.

Blogging has been quite the journey. I’ve met and connected with some amazing “blends” (blogger friends!), have had wonderful opportunities working with a few brands that I support, attended blogging and media-related events, and received so many emails/questions/comments from people from all over the world. I never realized the places I could go with my blog, and it’s certainly been an exciting ride. On a personal level, blogging has allowed me to maintain creativity and have a focal point or hobby outside of the otherwise all-consuming role of “stay at home mother”. Living so far from home, it has also been the bridge and connection to my family and friends; the ones who have supported me since Day 1.

Actually, it was probably more like Day 60. I didn’t tell many people about my blog for the longest time. Anyone who knows me would probably agree that I’m not really your typical “open book” kind of gal. Although I am straightforward and honest, that doesn’t mean I’m not private. So, blogging was extremely daunting in the beginning. And to be truthful, it still is sometimes. Ever since I was young, I’ve always worried about people judging me. I realize that I shouldn’t get too worked up about what other people think, but the truth is, I do.

Blogging is challenging. It is for me, at least. Lately I’ve really been doubting myself and questioning my purpose in all of this. Sometimes I feel like I just don’t have the time and energy to put any more into this blog than I already do. I get anxious when I see bloggers posting 6 times a week, when I can barely hit ‘publish’ once.

In all honesty, I can’t commit my hours/days/weeks/life to blogging. I wish I could treat it like a job…but it’s not one. So, I can’t. Instead, I choose to spend my days with my son. We play in the living room and make huge messes. We go for walks every day. We play in the park. I cook or prepare him 3 meals and 2 snacks each day. We read stories. We get together with friends. We go to baby gymnastics and swimming. We go to the gym so I can work out. He plays by himself while I try to clean up the kitchen, do laundry, or make the bed. He naps and I finally shower, eat something, respond to some emails, try to blog. This is my life, and precisely why I can’t make blogging a main priority, even though I would love for it to be one. I am starting to accept this fact. At times I feel like a rational parent, trying to let the blog just “be”, rather than push it to be bigger and better, or expecting more than it’s already providing.

Femme Fitale, once a project, is now a piece of me. Although I’m not sure how much it gives to others, I know that I have gained an enormous amount from my experience in writing it. And when it comes down to it, isn’t that the purpose of blogging in the first place?

Who knows what this next year has in store. All I know is that I am extremely grateful to all of you for your support, thoughtful comments, continuous encouragement, and for genuinely caring enough to check in on what I have to ramble about on any given day. I seriously couldn’t do this without you guys, so thank you.

xx Kelly

 

24 Thoughts on “A Blogging Birthday & A Few Thoughts

  1. How exciting, Kelly! Happy 2nd Birthday Femme Fitale!

  2. Happy 2nd birthday! Such a sweet accomplishment. Cheers to a few more years :)

  3. Congratulations on two years of femme-fitale, I look forward to reading for many more. Whether you post once a week or once a month, it’s a joy to read and hear about your life! xx

  4. Happy second blog birthday! I totally understand your thoughts with blogging, mine are definitely the same, it’s so hard to commit when there’s so much else out there that needs to get done – hopefully I’ll start to get better with regular posting.
    And always, I look forward to reading more of your blog in the future!

  5. Happy 2nd Birthday! :) I was the same way as you when I decided to start my blog. I’m not a big ‘sharer’ so it took me a little while to announce my blog to family and friends. I’ve been trying to post every day, but I think I will be cutting back soon. I rarely have weekend posts because that’s family time!

    • Kelly @ Femme Fitale on April 8, 2014 at 1:03 pm said:

      It’s such a commitment, isn’t it!? No one really knows how much time goes into what may seem like the simplest post. It’s hard to brush it to the said, but family always comes first.

  6. Well I am so glad you started writing! Happy 2nd birthday Femme Fitale!! xoxo

  7. Happy 2 years! I love reading you blog and wish you many more happy, fun and creative years! XOXO

  8. Happy bloggiversary girl! I think you’re doing brilliantly just how you are – so shove that blogger anxiety aside!

  9. This is why you’re awesome- This is reality. you are real. The blog is real.

    You phrased it perfectly- it isn’t a full time job but you should be proud of your posts- they are never ones posted ‘just for the sake of it’- each and every one is quality. Here’s to more Femme Fetale for many years to come..not the britney kind.

    • Kelly @ Femme Fitale on April 8, 2014 at 8:01 pm said:

      Thanks, pal. It’s true…I always want to ensure each post is meaningful. For me, and hopefully for others in one way or another.
      Hahah…aww Brit! Maybe she can come do a guest post.

  10. I’ve only just came across your blog today, but wanted to say happy belated 2nd birthday for the 6th! It think it’s awesome to see someone who is ‘real’ in their blogging. The fact that you may not have been much of a sharer adds authenticity to your blog! I’ve only read a few posts, but I can’t wait to look around some more.

  11. Hi Kelly! Congratulation for these 2 years! as I have told you before, I really like your blog ans it is always a pleasure to read you, you’ve been my inspiration to start writing mine (underconstruction at the moment). I’ve thinking for a couple of days about ‘what the hell to write on my very first post’ , so I came to your looking for some inspiration and you just posted yours! That is very good timing. :)

    • Kelly @ Femme Fitale on April 15, 2014 at 9:15 pm said:

      Thanks so much, Maca!! I really appreciate your kind words and support. Make sure to keep me posted on your blogging progress and pass through the link once everything is up and running!

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